Why this blog...

So that I don't forget...


I have been asked a couple of times to make a blog where all my Nirvana articles could be archived. For me, the idea of having a blog has been on my mind for sometime, but for a different reason. A much different one...

During the past few years, I have had an incredible opportunity to reflect upon so many things. I have had the time, the effort, and the resources necessary for me to focus on my own spiritual and mental growth. More than anything else, I was lucky to be able to do some Phenomenological thinking, Heidegger style, and try to think of things like right and wrong, and so many others, in an isolated manner, away from the pressures of society. A society does not like those who think differently and dare to say that they do. Perhaps these new thoughts, and the methods used to reach them, could not be poorer and more wrong, but it is the idea that someone dares to go beyond what everyone else thinks as true is something that is so abhorrent, so terrible.

And I think I came up with one or two insights, at least for myself. I would always feel this rush whenever I feel as if a lamp was turned on, shining light in some previously unknown territory of my brain, perhaps in the way Archimedes shouted Eureka!, "I found it! - وجدتها". It was the same adrenaline rush I felt as I would take for moderately dives into the sea. I started to develop my own theory of everything, and in many ways it felt good. But more importantly, self-reflection allows you to see things beyond the rush of life, beyond how everyday millions of us like cattel being led go into jobs which we hate, beyond how our societies tell how and why (and to whom) we should get married and form friendships, and beyond what our neighbours tell us to be an unchanging important fact and what is not. You begin to realise what is truly important, at least for yourself. You realise how, and why, you want to live. On another level, you also understand the world itself in a different, although most probably incomplete, way. You see how people, include yourself, exploit others consciously or unconsciously, for your own benefit. You see how nations and corporations, fighting for their own survival, and for that of its leaders, may go to extreme lengths, include the annihilation of others. You see how our envinronment is being ruined, how the North Pole is melting, how Skin Cancer is becoming as common as the flu, how our lungs are full of tar and how. as we worry about the world we leave for our future generation, more and more of us have lost the ability to create this future generation because of technology and or insufficiently tested modified and enhanced foods and crops, or even just stress. You see how that we created markets, companies, countries and others to serve us as human beings, as means to organise ourselves to create greater happiness, yet now we have become elegant slaves for our markets, companies and countries, and that the human society's happiness is more important than all of these artificial and forever changing entities. You see how love has become all about physical lust, and that there is no longer any spiritual lust for one another. You see how God has become a political tool for people to dominate and kill one another, and not a source of our happiness, fulfillment, and growth. You see how in the morning we criticise those who deceive, only to become them in the evening. You see so much ugliness, that you almost forget about whatever remaining beauty, that you decide to take a stand, and to live for the sake of making a difference. You decide to become better than all what you see around you, as much as you can.

But then one must eat. It is the primal instinct within us, and it is so powerful that it has led men and women to eat one another to this very day, alive or dead. A human being may hate her/his body, life, or everything, but will do anything to stay alive, and eat. So, I had to join the cattle myself, and become somewhat of another cow myself. What makes you a cow, in a non-Hindu sense, is that you give away your unique self, your own spirit, your own dreams and your own sources of joy, happiness and fulfillment. As I began to find these things wanting to slip from my immediate memory to my bottom one, from my RAM to my harddisk, I decided to create this blog.This blog is to remind me of who I truly am, or want to be. If I do change, then it would be because I wanted to, and not because of wanting to fit in, and my fear of being different.

Today is the first day of Ramadan (2005 Anno Domini, Gregorian) and I did find myself laying around with a couple of hours on my hands. I thought that this could be the perfect time to start this blog. In it, I will keep my previous Nirvana Articles, any new material I get published, and the thoughts that I am afraid to lose. By publishing the latter, I shall tie myself to them.

This blog is for that I don't forget...

Thank you for coming here. Shukran & Hvala.







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Za uvjak :)